hey jealousy

I've come to realize that certain things that i do as a person can make me seriously unhappy with myself, so much so i feel sick. It's as if i disappoint myself so much and become somebody that i always try not to be, that it gets me so depressed and almost sick to my stomach thinking about it. To some it would be great, to me it's the worst feeling in the world.

And it's really not that big of a deal, but for some reason in my mind it's a huge deal, and one i try desperately to stay away from.

Anyway, today was a good day. I watched the taping of a tv segment for channel 3 that they are doing on our company in there studio this morning. It was pretty cool to see how that all works.

I also changed my roomates flat tire. Sadly it was kinda exciting for me to do that, such a break from the norm, and not something you get to do everyday. I guess it just makes you feel good to do stuff like that....as long as it's not your car.

McDonald's for dinner treated me good. The new homestyle chicken sandwich was lovely.

I found the show "planet earth" on this website that you can watch on the internet. www.tv-links.co.uk It's such a fascinating show and one of those things you just can't stop watching. I watched the one about 'fresh water' last night before falling asleep, and it was amazing the stuff they show on there. If you get a chance to see it, watch planet earth. It's amazing, and normally is shown on the Discovery Channel.

Supposed to be the hottest summer ever in Phoenix this summer, up into the 120's. Not sure how i will handle that.

Cubs suck.

I really need to get out and do something this weekend.

Welp, today's lesson learned was it's much more fun to change somebody else's tire.

Comeback cubbies

Well, i would hate to jinx them, but the cubs scored 7 runs in the 6th to take a big lead over the dodgers. Pretty pumped about that.

Found this video to be pretty hilarious...maybe because i like harry carry.


The roomies are starting to booze at 10:30 and it's looking like they are wanting to hit the bars. I think i am gonna pass, seeing as this game won't be over for a while and i don't want to go.

Dodgers just loaded the bases and nobody is out. Jinxed it in the first paragraph.

Had subway for dinner. The guy put too many jalopenos on my sandwhich.

2 strikes....

Jonah is drinking champaigne out of a regular glass, fully filled, like it's normal.
Nothing beats korbel on a friday night.

fouling off pitches, still 2 strikes...

Single, 1 run scored, bases still loaded, pitching change....cubs up 2 still, nobody out.

I'm really glad the 3 day weekend is here. It's looking like i am not gonna do much, which is sorta dissapointing. But i guess it's not so bad to relax every once in a while.

wild pitch..another run scores...cubs only up 1 now.

cubs suck, game tied...i'm done writing.

now there's nothing left to say

Well, i made it back from my tour of duty in Florida. I spent most of the time in the hotel working, stepped foot on the beach once, and rarely slept. But it was fun. It made the trip much better for me knowing i was going to be coming back for a week to sit on the beach and soak up the sun.

Anyway, this puppy is sitting on my bed staring at his shadow on the wall and is really confused. Now she is growling at her shadow. Now she is sniffing it. Interesting.

I really feel i want to take advantage of this 3 day weekend, my first in a long time. I've contemplated california, vegas, grand canyon, mexico, seattle...But just not sure what i want to do. I have a feeling i will end up here, sitting by the pool, worrying about work, and wishing i had more of a life. We'll see what happens.

Tonights season finale of lost was magnifico. They threw some big twists in there of course, but who really knows what is going on. It's amazing to me that the next season doesn't start until almost february. I will have to go out and buy the dvd just to remember what happened in season 3 before season 4 starts. Hmm...those abc people sure are smart, based on what my last sentence just said. I'm sure i am not the only one who will be doing that.

It bothers me sometimes when i fly and the person next to you never even says hi. How can you sit next to somebody, shoulder to shoulder, and not even say hi to them. I mean, it seems to me it would make the flight better if you befriend the person next to you, and have a conversation about interesting parts of each others lives. I could be sitting next to michael jackson's kid and would have no clue because we didn't talk to each other. I guess that is the world we live in, but that bothers me, and i'm not even much of a talker.

This dog is now eating his dog tag that is on his collar.

My sister is having twins and is trying to come up with names. She currently has braden and jameson....but i'm not sure about those. They just sound like they would be troublemakers.

Well, there is nothing left to say, as i am wiped out.

monday's random thoughts

Well, we are a day past mothers day, and if any of you forgot to give your mom a gift, you might want to send her this video.



Well, the suns just pulled a win out of there ass. Go crazy Phoenix.

I want to apologize to any of my ex girlfriends who were offended by my last blog.

2 more days until florida and the humidity. I need to remember to do Laundry and Iron some nice clothes tomorrow night.

I wasn't a fan of Cold Stone until i had this Banana split thing there tonight. The strawberries just made my night.

I was in Best Buy tonight on my solo date(which was capped off by Cold Stone)and i saw this CD that was featured called Indiana. I then realized it was this guy named Jon McGlaughlin who a couple of years ago stole one of my best friends girls away from him and is now married to her. Of course that didn't stop me from buying the cd and letting my buddy know i bought it.

Does is get any better than Radiohead when your not really sure what mood your in?

My granpa got to come home from the Nursing home today. That is great news! Wish i was there.

I really wish somebody could walk on my back right now. I haven't had a back message in like 3 years. Maybe one of these dogs will help me out..... Nope, seems they only know how to hump my leg and lick my face.

Sometimes i wish i was Ronnie Woo Woo....

being single

I'm really kinda sick of being single. I'd much prefer to be single than to date somebody i am not nuts about. But being out here with only a few friends and away from my family, it would be really nice to have somebody else to hang out with. I realize it's my fault i am single, i am way too picky, and don't really put myself out there.

But i don't really think somebody needs to go out looking to find somebody. I think it should just happen and you will meet that person eventually because you are supposed to meet them. In the land of pretentous people, it's very difficult to find somebody that probably fits what i am looking for. I mean, one criteria i have is can i see this girl fitting in with my immediate and extended family. And out here in Phoenix, lol, that is gonna be hard to find considering where i come from! I've kinda come to realize i might be single until the day i move away from Phoenix...but i hope not.

But hanging out with the guys on a friday night is getting kind of old. It would be nice to be at a movie with a good looking girl than with 2 dudes! Not that i don't enjoy my buds, but i am sure they feel the same way.

I've come to a point in my life where i don't really want to waste my time dating somebody if i know it's not going to go somewhere. Before i used to do that, but i think i know what i want now, and there is no reason to settle for anything other than that. I dunno, just felt like writing that, maybe somebody will take pitty on me!

my weekend

I was pretty tired from the week on friday, ended up watching boxing until about 2am. Here is one of the best fights you will ever watch. Rounds 3,5,9, and 10 are unbelievable.



So i got up and went to the pool early. It was my first attempt at getting some sun this year, and it was a successful attempt. I am not fried. I thought my burn would be gone by now, but it seems to be getting worse.

Watched the Suns game at Yard House on saturday evening. Can't say i didn't enjoy the fact that they lost, considering i'm a pacers fan and i was watching it with a bunch of suns fans. It's always fun to root against the house. Of course i am sure nobody had a clue i wasn't rooting for the suns.

Ended up coming home after the game, watched a movie and went to bed.

Cubs won today finally. Big series coming up against the Mets, then the SOX. Wish i was back in Chicago for that one.

I was dissapointed in myself today. I hiked camelback probably a little too early than i should of, while it was still 100 degrees, and really struggled. Not so much physically but mentally. It wasn't a fun hike, and i was only about 1 of 2 people on it. And what really hurt me was that this dude came running by me like it was nothing, and made me feel like i was a wuss. Next time should be better, hopefully not as hot.

This is going to be a busy week for me. I fly to florida on wednesday( www.marcoislandmarriott.com ) then work non-stop the next 4 days. Should be interesting. I will be drained on sunday, but then have to get right back to work on monday. It will be a nice break from the day to day grind of a normal week.

Starbucks makes me nervous

The Video is for those of you who's birthday it is. Enjoy



So my day started off getting a call at 7am that our alarm at work was going off. Luckily even though i was half asleep, i remembered the code and the guy didn't have to call the police. But i didn't get out of bed to run to the office to turn it off, what's the point, i am first there anyway..

So then, i get to the office and it was my turn to make a starbucks run. Now, this was only going to be my third time ever in a starbucks. And i am not a coffee conassiour(sp), so i don't ever really know what to get. It was easy reading off what my coworkers ordered, but i kinda got nervous when it was my turn because i don't know what anything is. Starbucks make me nervous!! I ended up getting what i usually get even though it's nasty, which is a vanilla cappucino. Then, i get coffee breath for the rest of the morning. Really, couldn't somebody of come up with a better invention than coffee in the morning, something that tastes better and doesn't leave you with bad breath? Not too mention something that doesn't involve mochas and frapuchino's and latte's? I mean, what in the hell is a latte? Apparantley i am the only idiot who doesn't know these things because starbucks is bigger than Micheal Jackson in his prime right now.

Anyway, the rest of the day really drug on, and i got stuck at work until almost 7 waiting on people.

From there, it was home to eat, then wait until 9pm to play the first game of our basketball tournament. We got moved up to the A division, should of been there the entire season. We crushed the other team, and i am finally getting my game back. I think the tournament put a little extra spring in my step.

So i just got done watching the Bachelor. They are down to 4 girls and did the hometown dates. Anyway, this Idiot bachelor guy ends up kicking off the best looking, half way normal girl because she was too young for him. Now, this girl is a 23 year old, very mature school teacher, while he is like 29. What 29 year old guy would do such a thing?! Meanwhile, he picks these 3 other girls, one of whom just told him she was divorced, the other who keeps bringing up her dead ex boyfriend, and the 3rd has to be pushing 38 years old. Don't the producers have the right to step in and knock some sense into this guy? I think it's time i sign up for the show and see if i can be the first bachelor to not make a fool of himself, not make out with every girl, and pick the right girl. Can't be that hard. This guy is a Navy doctor and he comes off like he 18 years old.

Anyway, that was my day....this weekend is looking pretty sweet, total open schedule, no work, lots of sun, maybe some hiking, and maybe a new book...oh, and i need to buy an ipod.


Sanders out

Wednesday i think

Well, it's wednesday evening and that means there was an Episode of Lost on. I'm pretty sure i didn't enjoy tonights episode, but i should let it digest and maybe i will change my mind tomorrow.

There are 2 dogs humping on my bed right now, missionary style, which you don't see much from animals...i'm just happy i am not involved.

It's hotter than blazes out now in the Phoenix Metro area. I think i will finally need to hit the pool this weekend since i have nothing going on, and i desperatley need to rid myself of this farmers tan. It's been a while since i went swimming. Hope i don't sink.

I am watching this show about the army on the history channel being narrated by that old guy who was in Saving Silverman. He seems to be getting his kicks from watching all of these soilders injured. There are showing medivac helicoptors in Iraq and how they do there thing. Some of you out there might find that to be interesting. This guy is getting this huge needle stuck in his finger, ouch. They did mention the medic can't stray more than 5 minutes from the helicopter...Is that true?

Dogs must of worn themselves out, they are taking a break.

I really drank too much coke today. I need to start drinking more water.

I did finally get my car washed for the first time since i got it. That might be a record for somebody who got a ne w car to go without washing it. I should look that up.

I need to find a good book to read. Haven't come across anything lately that has kept my interest. Anybody have any ideas?

Ok, bedtime.

FJ

So i leased this new vehicle a month or so ago....and i absolutely love it. However, i almost cringe every time i see it because i know what i am paying for it. I really don't need a nice car, but it's so nice not having to worry about it breaking down.

But when i think about it, i feel i have almost commited all of the 7 deadly sins just buy getting this FJ.

I lusted after the damn thing to make me feel good about having it.
Pride, well, i am proud to drive it.
Envy, well...i live in scottsdale and see all these nice cars, so i thought i should have one.
Greed, i totally don't need that nice of a car.
Gluttony, do i really need an suv? Why didn't i get a prius.
Sloth, well, i now want to drive everywhere instead of maybe a walk, hope i don't get fat.
Anger, i was angry at myself for getting talked into getting this ride from the salesman when i didn't need it.

I really did feel they made the car specifically for me though, and there wasn't any way i wasn't going to get one. So can you really fault me?

monday monday, la la, la la la la

So why do dogs scratch at bed sheets? Is it to warm up a spot....or warm up there feet, or just because they are bored. I am sitting here watching this dog go to town on my bed, messing up my sheets and then just staring at the bed. Now she is growling at nothing. I wish i had that life.

Work went well today...i was really busy all day so the day flew by. I did pretty well on some commisions today as well. After work, it was off to the weight room...then a quick shower. It was time to go do a little shopping.

I went to REI for the first time, and found all sorts of goodies i would love to buy. I did end up buying a camel pack(not the cigarrettes), and definitley plan on heading back there when i feel like spending more money. I also decided it's time to buy some new shorts, so it was off to PV mall where i ended up buying some shorts at AE, and 2 shirts at Old Navy. How can you pass up a 5$ long sleeve shirt and a 1o$ collared shirt?! I felt like i was robbing the place.

Then, i decided i was going to be lazy and went and got some food at wendy's.

My roomate pulled out his nintendo 64 tonight and it looks like mario cart is going to be played all night every night for a while. I suck at it, but my roomate is an all-american apparantley. Hopefully i can improve so i don't stay 3rd place all the time.

Yes, this is my life...i need a hobbie.

sunday sunday

Today i went on a trip with my co-workers on a tour of the apache trail...Enough said.

After that, i ended up hiking camelback. The weather was perfect and i think i made it up in my best time yet, or at least it felt like it since i don't time myself. But i was barely winded and it's getting easier and easier. From there, it was on to a much needed nap before making my mac and cheese.

And that was my sunday.

cinco de mayo

well, cinco de mayo has almost come and gone....and considering i don't drink, to me it's just may 5th. It was a good day though. Started off with a flag football game in which we got the dub..Then came home and made my bed, messed around on the internet a bit, and ate 3 hot dogs(which i have since regretted doing).

From there, it was our first tennis match between the roomates, since they finally opened the court..I took the first set from jonah, lost the 2nd to nick, and took the 3rd again from Jonah. All in all it was a good time, except for the fresh blister created on my thumb.

From there, it was time to get prepared for the fight of the year, De La Joya vs. Mayweather...Went to the groceria, bought some shiz, then came back and started watching boxing while the friends came filing in the door. Fast forward a few hours later and the overhyped fight ends with an easy Mayweather victory...

It's time to listen to some drunk people laugh a lot while watching classic youtube clips and talk about possible plans for the rest of the night. Needless to say, it turns in to just being all talk and we sit around watching tv and messing on our computers. Oh, and a side note...there is a drunk girl passed out in my bed who couldn't handle watching the fight...i gotta get up early and would really like to be in my bed right now, so it's about time to wake somebody up.

Another side note, nick is quoting every line of bad boys 2 right now while hammered.... simply Amazing.


Well, it's time to see if i can get this person out of my bed and get some sleep. All in all, today was a good day..Hopefully tomorrow is even better.

thursday

Well, another day another dollar i guess..I had a basketball game tonight. Pretty much suck at ball now, but enjoy the fact i am staying in shape. It's weird, when your young you never really think you will lose a step or get much worse. But i have come to the realization that i have lost a step and my game has fallen apart. I really don't care about my basketball skills anymore, haven't really cared much since i got out of high school. But it's more of a realization that a skill can deteriorate if not used much as you age. I never thought i would ever not care about basketball, considering it was the most important thing in my life for about 10 years. But once that competitive edge isn't there anymore, it's just not as fun. I guess i should find new hobbies.

LOST

We are down to the final few episodes of Season 3 of Lost...Tonights episode dealt with Sawyer being tricked into killing Locks father. It also really made me believe that the show is based on these people being in purgatory..They are really stressing lately that all of the people died in the plane crash, so we'll see how that turns out. Jack seems to be turning in to a major douche, but there is still time for him to come through. I think this show is brilliant, even the episodes that don't seem as good end up being the more important episodes at times.

indecisive

well, i am new to this whole thing, and don't really know what to write about. My days all seem to be running together, always looking forward to the weekend even though i seem to be working a lot of weekends recently. This weekend should be a good one. I have a game on saturday morning, wouldn't mind hiking camelback after that...then watching the De La Hoya fight in the evening while eating some good food hopefully. Then sunday a company called "Detours of Arizona" is taking my office staff on a tour of the Apache Trail for free. So that should be fun. It would be nice to not have anything to do for once on a weekend, but these days i am not to keen on being overly lazy like i was when i was younger. It makes me feel as if i am wasting my life away, not taking advantage of what Arizona has to offer. I mean i did leave Indiana for a reason, and that was not to sit on the couch all day!

My first blog

Well, we'll see how this goes and if i am interesting enough to be read. About to watch "Lost", maybe my favorite drama of all time. Will write more later.