I'm Moving

My blog has officially moved to a different website. So all of you out there who read my blog(that's you mom) go to feedthehabit.wordpress.com if you want to continue to check up on me. Gracias

i want you to notice

Well, we are finally out of the apartment and in to the house. It's great having so much more space, a pool, and living in a nice neigborhood. Unfortunately, we have very little furniture, and we have an entire living room that is sitting empty. Hopefully we can find some cheap furniture to fill the void. Or we could just go with George's idea and turn it into a dance floor. We are hoping to make some friends so that we can entertain now that we have this big house and a nice pool, but we'll see if that happens.

Football season is in full effect, and what that normally means is our tv will be on much more on the weekends. This is always such a good time of year because baseball is winding down, which is exciting, and football is just getting under way, which can't be beat. Unfortunately, now that i live in an area where the weather will be close to perfect this time of year, i won't want to be sitting on a couch all weekend like i would of if i lived back where it is cold. So we'll see what happens. Hopefully i create a fulfilling balance.

New season of 'Curb Your Enthusiasm' started tonight. It didn't dissapoint.

I saw where the movie "Into the Wild" is coming out in a few weeks. It's based on a book by John Krakaeur about this dude who graduates college, then gives away all of his posessions and takes off cross country with nothing but the clothes on his back for an adventure. Anyway, i loved the book, but i have a feeling the movie is really gonna suck. We'll see what happens. But the moral to this story is i suggest you read the book. BTW it's a true story.

I haven't dated a girl in well over a year now. Been on some dates, but that's about it.

Have a 6 day work week this week. Looking forward to going to Chicago the following weekend though. Chicago has always been my favorite city for the most part. Maybe because it's really one of the only major cities i have spent a lot of time in, and the fact that it's just a really cool city. But i am looking forward to spending some time with my high school buddies, catching a cubs game, and seeing the city. What i am not looking forward to is catching a 6am flight out of chicago on that monday, and landing in Phoenix at 7am to go to work for the entire day shortly after. What was i thinking?

be a beach bum, it's more fun

I just finished watching the documentary called "the bridge". It focuses on people jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge to there death, and family and friends of these people talk about the mental state of what the people were like.

Obviously a very sad documentary.

But it got me thinking about just how far away from my mental state must i be to even consider doing something like that. In my mind, there is always tomorrow. And even on the most horrific of days, tomorrow can always be a better day. You never know what can happen. Everybody body has there bad days, but most people can wake up the next day and realize that everything always will get better.

Each individual suicide case is different i'm sure. Although most of them must feel like there is just no where else to turn and instead of living through there daily mental anguish, it would be easy to put themselves out of there misery.

I think so many people are depressed these days because our society has created such pressure on people to succeed. And if you don't succeed, then you can only be a failure. I was watching a talk by Sir Ken Robinson about how schools are totally ruining kids and how it will hurt society in the future. Well to a lot of extent i think he is correct. Along those same lines, i think our schools and society in general look down upon individual creativity and people who are not the norm. And the pressure to fit in, and be rich, and to make something of yourself is becoming greater with each generation.

Life is short, and when i really think about it, it seems so rediculous that most of us will waste 30 years of our lives sitting behind a desk or a computer to make ends meet, instead of actually doing what we really want to do and living life to the fullest. It's because our society only measures success based on how much money you make, how good looking your significant other is, and what kind of car you drive. So instead of actually doing something you privately dream about that would make you totally happy, you end up trying to live up to other peoples ideals and that, in my mind, creates unnecessary pressure and unhappiness.

I wish i could say i live by what i just wrote about, but of course i don't, and i have my 9-5 behind a desk. But hopefully the first step to lead me to fulfilling my real dreams is the realization that i know what would make me most happy and successful in my mind.

It's really sad to think that some poeple feel so trapped that there only alternative is to kill themselves. Why not instead of killing yourself, move to a place where you don't know anybody, and just start a new life. Create a new you where nobody knows a thing about you. Work at a video store the rest of your life if that makes you happy.

I dunno, to me it's just frustrating to see healthy people kill themselves, when in actuality there are so many alternatives.

Anyway, that's my midnight rant on suicide.

The Bridge

Gained about 273 lbs over the weekend while eating home cooked meals that i don't normally get to eat....obviously because i am not normally home.

After this past weekend, I've learned that i like babies and am not afraid of them.

I feel i should respond to my buddies blog http://lifeofajesse.blogspot.com about his friends being lame sometimes. My response is that not everybody has the same interests, not everybody gets the same thing out of doing certain things, and not everybody is in the same point in there life where certain things might be more important than others. I think i was probably quoted in his blog when it read "i don't see the point of going out". At least i am guessing that i am probably who he was reffering to, or at least one of the people he had in mind. I know he already knows what i am about to type, but thought i would share it with anybody else who might care.

If you put yourself in my shoes, it would be easy to see why i don't like going out. First of all, i don't like talking to strangers. Second i don't drink. Third, it sucks watching my friends spend 2 hours talking about which girl they think they might want to talk to, only to see 2 hours later, no progress has been made other than spending way too much money on drinks. Did i mention i am not comfortable approaching strangers? Fifth, since i don't drink, it's not fun being with drunk people at 3am while they are making irrational decisions while i only want to find my bed. Sixth, you can't have a conversation because things are always too loud. Eighth, i don't like to dance. Ninth, I am 27 years old and have never met anybody at a bar that i have ever wanted to see again. And tenth, movie theater seats are more comfortable than a bar seat.

But to some people like Mr. Ferrell, there personality totally makes going to a bar or club something fun for them. So i guess to summarize "too each his own".

So there.

I'm now in 3 fantasy football leagues, totally wasting my money. Amazingly i haven't had one say on any single draft pick.

My mom has become my most loyal blog reader apparantley. So i figured i would start her and my dad with there own blog www.newgrandparents.blogspot.com .... We'll see if they ever make an entry.

Moving day is this weekend to the new house. Totally not looking forward to packing my possesions, even though all i have are my clothes and a bed.

I brought my guitar back from Indiana. One of my co-workers has been wanting to teach me how to play, so we'll see what happens. I plan on starting a band in about 2 years....pretty sure i could be the lead singer with my killer voice.

Watching a documentary called "the bridge" about all of these people trying to commit suicide off the Golden Gate Bridge. Very uplifting movie. First scene, this guy just jumped off...nice.

Pretty sure i have the cutest nephews in the world, but i bet you will say that too at some point in your life.

Carlos Zambrano....no soup for you.

epiphany

I watched a documentary last night called "the future we will create" about this convention they have every year in Monterey, California. It was such an interesting thing and i ended up going to the website. The website is www.ted.com ....and it has all sorts of interesting people who are allowed about 20 minutes to present to the audience there thought, there invention, there idea, there work, there music, or basically any other creative thing that they have come up with. Much of it deals with social issues and how the world can be changed for the better. Anyway, it's really interesting stuff and i have become addicted to listening to what these creative people have to say and show. Here is an example of one of my favorites speakers i have heard so far.
Sir Ken Robinson: Do Schools Kill Creativity?

Anyway, if any of you happen to get addicted to this website like i am, feel free to let me know if you find any really interesting videos on there that i might like.

Fantasy Football has started and i am now in a different league with different people than i have been before. I can tell this league is going to consume much more of my time than probably ever before. I bought a horrid team from somebody who gave up i think and it has been fun trying to rebuild it. We'll see what happens.

I'm really looking forward to going home this weekend and seeing everybody. I think i have mentioned that before.

I think i want to start a non-profit organization via a website that people can donate money to any cause they wish. I could put hundreds of "causes" onto my website that people could donate money to there cause of choice, and i could allocate that money to a certain organization. I just thought of that as i am typing this, and i am sure i could make it much better and more elaborate than that, but you get the idea. Just an idea.

Cubs lose today, but still a few games up!

thank god for good directions and turnip greens

Well, the house hunting has come to an end finally and it appears we found a cool house to move into soon in a super duper neighborhood with an HOA and everything. We aren't even allowed to park our cars on the street. But now we have to find a 4th roomate, which seeems like a more difficult challenge than finding the house. So far we have come accross a cage fighter, a former nebraska football player(who is the top candidate so far), and a dirt bike racer.

I must say i didn't know that i could peel for so long after a sun burn. It's pretty amazing and i look forward to the day when i am white as a ghost and don't have to worry about this shit.

Next weekend i fly home to see the fam and the new additions to the fam. Should be lots of fun and a quick trip as always. It will be the first time i will of flown home and the entire family is there, since all of the siblings have moved home but me. Looking forward to all of the guilt trips thrown my way. Should be a good time though. Last year at this time was my first trip home after moving to california. Time flies.

My favorite time of the year is approaching, which is fall. That means football season, cooler temps, leaves changing colors, tailgating, long sleeve clothes,curb your enthusiasm,, and baseball playoffs. I can also say i have almost survived my 2nd summer in Phoenix.

Last night was one of the best nights of sleep i have had in a while. Hoping to duplicate that tonight.

So this house we found to rent is like 2800 sq ft and we have no furniture. And when i say no furniture, we have 2 couches and a small kitchen table. But that's it. And i think there is a chance the couches might be sold at some point by jonah. So if anybody know anybody looking to cheaply get rid of lots of furniture, let me know. Hopefully the new roomie was like a former furniture sales person and can furnish the entire house. Looks like we might be searching craigslist for some sweet furniture.

We watched the first half of bob saget't stand-up comedy special tonight on HBO. I anticipated it to be really funny because it was kinda hyped up. But it wasn't remotely funny at all. I mean the dude is really vulger, and a lot of time that is funny. But nothing he said made sense. The only thing i gathered was he was trying to set the tv record for most times dropping the f-bomb in an hour. He had no jokes, definitely was making stuff up as he went, and used the Full House references way too much....even though those seemed to be the only half way funny things he said. Just dumb.

Cubs in first place still, holding on barely.

full house

Well, i am officially an uncle of 2 boys as of about an hour ago. I think there names are Jameson and Keegan, but as many times as my sister has changed there names, i will need to get confirmation on that. I guess my vote didn't count for them to be named after there favorite uncle Joey.

Not really sure exactly what the job responsibilty of an uncle is. But i think it involves only fun stuff like gift giving, wrestling with the kids, holding them until they cry or need to use the restroom, and making funny faces at them. I'm pretty sure i will never have to change a diaper, although since she got 2 babies for the price of one, the rules might change?

I still need to get some gifts for when i go home next weekend. I am absolutely clueless on what to get, but i think its probably gonna involving some small clothes or toys or something. If anybody has any good suggestions let me know.

Cubbies are looking like they are about to score here in the 10th inning. We'll see if they can blow it.

I'm pretty sure i am going to win the $250 million powerball here in a few minutes. That would allow me to buy lots of baby presents.

Cubs just scored to take the lead. Maybe it is my lucky night!