Random Thoughts

I can't get over the fact that teams settle for shooting 3's when all they need to do is drive to the bucket and get fouled. Makes you wonder how coaches get paid millions of dollars and can't figure that out.

I might be socially awkward. I never feel right when out at a bar with people i don't really know all that well. Maybe it's just because I don't enjoy going to bars.

I did stand up paddle again this weekend. It was great. I'm starting to get the hang of it. Hopefully someday I can afford to buy my own and take it everywhere with me.

My Reality

I am here in Austin, TX and was with Kim walking around downtown to check out some of the SXSW that we could hear on the sidewalk. We spotted Brad Womack and his new flame at one of the bars...might of been one of the ones he owns. Not sure. They were surrounded by a lot of people....we kept walking.

I made Kim watch "the Jerk" the other night for the first time. I wasn't expecting her to like it, but she loved it and is still quoting it. Steve Martin is on Letterman tonight, he's one of my favorites.

I posted some new pics yesterday at www.ImagesbyJoseph.com . I think they are some of my better pics.

Austin, TX

I found my old blog and figured that since google was paying me with the google adsense, I might as well start blogging on here a bit more.

Anyway, today I did stand up paddle boarding at lake Austin. It was really awesome. I was pretty nervous at the beginning, but quickly got the hang of it and had a lot of fun. I think I am going to look into starting my own SUP business. We'll see what happens.

I'm Moving

My blog has officially moved to a different website. So all of you out there who read my blog(that's you mom) go to feedthehabit.wordpress.com if you want to continue to check up on me. Gracias

i want you to notice

Well, we are finally out of the apartment and in to the house. It's great having so much more space, a pool, and living in a nice neigborhood. Unfortunately, we have very little furniture, and we have an entire living room that is sitting empty. Hopefully we can find some cheap furniture to fill the void. Or we could just go with George's idea and turn it into a dance floor. We are hoping to make some friends so that we can entertain now that we have this big house and a nice pool, but we'll see if that happens.

Football season is in full effect, and what that normally means is our tv will be on much more on the weekends. This is always such a good time of year because baseball is winding down, which is exciting, and football is just getting under way, which can't be beat. Unfortunately, now that i live in an area where the weather will be close to perfect this time of year, i won't want to be sitting on a couch all weekend like i would of if i lived back where it is cold. So we'll see what happens. Hopefully i create a fulfilling balance.

New season of 'Curb Your Enthusiasm' started tonight. It didn't dissapoint.

I saw where the movie "Into the Wild" is coming out in a few weeks. It's based on a book by John Krakaeur about this dude who graduates college, then gives away all of his posessions and takes off cross country with nothing but the clothes on his back for an adventure. Anyway, i loved the book, but i have a feeling the movie is really gonna suck. We'll see what happens. But the moral to this story is i suggest you read the book. BTW it's a true story.

I haven't dated a girl in well over a year now. Been on some dates, but that's about it.

Have a 6 day work week this week. Looking forward to going to Chicago the following weekend though. Chicago has always been my favorite city for the most part. Maybe because it's really one of the only major cities i have spent a lot of time in, and the fact that it's just a really cool city. But i am looking forward to spending some time with my high school buddies, catching a cubs game, and seeing the city. What i am not looking forward to is catching a 6am flight out of chicago on that monday, and landing in Phoenix at 7am to go to work for the entire day shortly after. What was i thinking?

be a beach bum, it's more fun

I just finished watching the documentary called "the bridge". It focuses on people jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge to there death, and family and friends of these people talk about the mental state of what the people were like.

Obviously a very sad documentary.

But it got me thinking about just how far away from my mental state must i be to even consider doing something like that. In my mind, there is always tomorrow. And even on the most horrific of days, tomorrow can always be a better day. You never know what can happen. Everybody body has there bad days, but most people can wake up the next day and realize that everything always will get better.

Each individual suicide case is different i'm sure. Although most of them must feel like there is just no where else to turn and instead of living through there daily mental anguish, it would be easy to put themselves out of there misery.

I think so many people are depressed these days because our society has created such pressure on people to succeed. And if you don't succeed, then you can only be a failure. I was watching a talk by Sir Ken Robinson about how schools are totally ruining kids and how it will hurt society in the future. Well to a lot of extent i think he is correct. Along those same lines, i think our schools and society in general look down upon individual creativity and people who are not the norm. And the pressure to fit in, and be rich, and to make something of yourself is becoming greater with each generation.

Life is short, and when i really think about it, it seems so rediculous that most of us will waste 30 years of our lives sitting behind a desk or a computer to make ends meet, instead of actually doing what we really want to do and living life to the fullest. It's because our society only measures success based on how much money you make, how good looking your significant other is, and what kind of car you drive. So instead of actually doing something you privately dream about that would make you totally happy, you end up trying to live up to other peoples ideals and that, in my mind, creates unnecessary pressure and unhappiness.

I wish i could say i live by what i just wrote about, but of course i don't, and i have my 9-5 behind a desk. But hopefully the first step to lead me to fulfilling my real dreams is the realization that i know what would make me most happy and successful in my mind.

It's really sad to think that some poeple feel so trapped that there only alternative is to kill themselves. Why not instead of killing yourself, move to a place where you don't know anybody, and just start a new life. Create a new you where nobody knows a thing about you. Work at a video store the rest of your life if that makes you happy.

I dunno, to me it's just frustrating to see healthy people kill themselves, when in actuality there are so many alternatives.

Anyway, that's my midnight rant on suicide.

The Bridge

Gained about 273 lbs over the weekend while eating home cooked meals that i don't normally get to eat....obviously because i am not normally home.

After this past weekend, I've learned that i like babies and am not afraid of them.

I feel i should respond to my buddies blog http://lifeofajesse.blogspot.com about his friends being lame sometimes. My response is that not everybody has the same interests, not everybody gets the same thing out of doing certain things, and not everybody is in the same point in there life where certain things might be more important than others. I think i was probably quoted in his blog when it read "i don't see the point of going out". At least i am guessing that i am probably who he was reffering to, or at least one of the people he had in mind. I know he already knows what i am about to type, but thought i would share it with anybody else who might care.

If you put yourself in my shoes, it would be easy to see why i don't like going out. First of all, i don't like talking to strangers. Second i don't drink. Third, it sucks watching my friends spend 2 hours talking about which girl they think they might want to talk to, only to see 2 hours later, no progress has been made other than spending way too much money on drinks. Did i mention i am not comfortable approaching strangers? Fifth, since i don't drink, it's not fun being with drunk people at 3am while they are making irrational decisions while i only want to find my bed. Sixth, you can't have a conversation because things are always too loud. Eighth, i don't like to dance. Ninth, I am 27 years old and have never met anybody at a bar that i have ever wanted to see again. And tenth, movie theater seats are more comfortable than a bar seat.

But to some people like Mr. Ferrell, there personality totally makes going to a bar or club something fun for them. So i guess to summarize "too each his own".

So there.

I'm now in 3 fantasy football leagues, totally wasting my money. Amazingly i haven't had one say on any single draft pick.

My mom has become my most loyal blog reader apparantley. So i figured i would start her and my dad with there own blog www.newgrandparents.blogspot.com .... We'll see if they ever make an entry.

Moving day is this weekend to the new house. Totally not looking forward to packing my possesions, even though all i have are my clothes and a bed.

I brought my guitar back from Indiana. One of my co-workers has been wanting to teach me how to play, so we'll see what happens. I plan on starting a band in about 2 years....pretty sure i could be the lead singer with my killer voice.

Watching a documentary called "the bridge" about all of these people trying to commit suicide off the Golden Gate Bridge. Very uplifting movie. First scene, this guy just jumped off...nice.

Pretty sure i have the cutest nephews in the world, but i bet you will say that too at some point in your life.

Carlos Zambrano....no soup for you.