hey jealousy

I've come to realize that certain things that i do as a person can make me seriously unhappy with myself, so much so i feel sick. It's as if i disappoint myself so much and become somebody that i always try not to be, that it gets me so depressed and almost sick to my stomach thinking about it. To some it would be great, to me it's the worst feeling in the world.

And it's really not that big of a deal, but for some reason in my mind it's a huge deal, and one i try desperately to stay away from.

Anyway, today was a good day. I watched the taping of a tv segment for channel 3 that they are doing on our company in there studio this morning. It was pretty cool to see how that all works.

I also changed my roomates flat tire. Sadly it was kinda exciting for me to do that, such a break from the norm, and not something you get to do everyday. I guess it just makes you feel good to do stuff like that....as long as it's not your car.

McDonald's for dinner treated me good. The new homestyle chicken sandwich was lovely.

I found the show "planet earth" on this website that you can watch on the internet. www.tv-links.co.uk It's such a fascinating show and one of those things you just can't stop watching. I watched the one about 'fresh water' last night before falling asleep, and it was amazing the stuff they show on there. If you get a chance to see it, watch planet earth. It's amazing, and normally is shown on the Discovery Channel.

Supposed to be the hottest summer ever in Phoenix this summer, up into the 120's. Not sure how i will handle that.

Cubs suck.

I really need to get out and do something this weekend.

Welp, today's lesson learned was it's much more fun to change somebody else's tire.

Comeback cubbies

Well, i would hate to jinx them, but the cubs scored 7 runs in the 6th to take a big lead over the dodgers. Pretty pumped about that.

Found this video to be pretty hilarious...maybe because i like harry carry.


The roomies are starting to booze at 10:30 and it's looking like they are wanting to hit the bars. I think i am gonna pass, seeing as this game won't be over for a while and i don't want to go.

Dodgers just loaded the bases and nobody is out. Jinxed it in the first paragraph.

Had subway for dinner. The guy put too many jalopenos on my sandwhich.

2 strikes....

Jonah is drinking champaigne out of a regular glass, fully filled, like it's normal.
Nothing beats korbel on a friday night.

fouling off pitches, still 2 strikes...

Single, 1 run scored, bases still loaded, pitching change....cubs up 2 still, nobody out.

I'm really glad the 3 day weekend is here. It's looking like i am not gonna do much, which is sorta dissapointing. But i guess it's not so bad to relax every once in a while.

wild pitch..another run scores...cubs only up 1 now.

cubs suck, game tied...i'm done writing.

now there's nothing left to say

Well, i made it back from my tour of duty in Florida. I spent most of the time in the hotel working, stepped foot on the beach once, and rarely slept. But it was fun. It made the trip much better for me knowing i was going to be coming back for a week to sit on the beach and soak up the sun.

Anyway, this puppy is sitting on my bed staring at his shadow on the wall and is really confused. Now she is growling at her shadow. Now she is sniffing it. Interesting.

I really feel i want to take advantage of this 3 day weekend, my first in a long time. I've contemplated california, vegas, grand canyon, mexico, seattle...But just not sure what i want to do. I have a feeling i will end up here, sitting by the pool, worrying about work, and wishing i had more of a life. We'll see what happens.

Tonights season finale of lost was magnifico. They threw some big twists in there of course, but who really knows what is going on. It's amazing to me that the next season doesn't start until almost february. I will have to go out and buy the dvd just to remember what happened in season 3 before season 4 starts. Hmm...those abc people sure are smart, based on what my last sentence just said. I'm sure i am not the only one who will be doing that.

It bothers me sometimes when i fly and the person next to you never even says hi. How can you sit next to somebody, shoulder to shoulder, and not even say hi to them. I mean, it seems to me it would make the flight better if you befriend the person next to you, and have a conversation about interesting parts of each others lives. I could be sitting next to michael jackson's kid and would have no clue because we didn't talk to each other. I guess that is the world we live in, but that bothers me, and i'm not even much of a talker.

This dog is now eating his dog tag that is on his collar.

My sister is having twins and is trying to come up with names. She currently has braden and jameson....but i'm not sure about those. They just sound like they would be troublemakers.

Well, there is nothing left to say, as i am wiped out.

monday's random thoughts

Well, we are a day past mothers day, and if any of you forgot to give your mom a gift, you might want to send her this video.



Well, the suns just pulled a win out of there ass. Go crazy Phoenix.

I want to apologize to any of my ex girlfriends who were offended by my last blog.

2 more days until florida and the humidity. I need to remember to do Laundry and Iron some nice clothes tomorrow night.

I wasn't a fan of Cold Stone until i had this Banana split thing there tonight. The strawberries just made my night.

I was in Best Buy tonight on my solo date(which was capped off by Cold Stone)and i saw this CD that was featured called Indiana. I then realized it was this guy named Jon McGlaughlin who a couple of years ago stole one of my best friends girls away from him and is now married to her. Of course that didn't stop me from buying the cd and letting my buddy know i bought it.

Does is get any better than Radiohead when your not really sure what mood your in?

My granpa got to come home from the Nursing home today. That is great news! Wish i was there.

I really wish somebody could walk on my back right now. I haven't had a back message in like 3 years. Maybe one of these dogs will help me out..... Nope, seems they only know how to hump my leg and lick my face.

Sometimes i wish i was Ronnie Woo Woo....

being single

I'm really kinda sick of being single. I'd much prefer to be single than to date somebody i am not nuts about. But being out here with only a few friends and away from my family, it would be really nice to have somebody else to hang out with. I realize it's my fault i am single, i am way too picky, and don't really put myself out there.

But i don't really think somebody needs to go out looking to find somebody. I think it should just happen and you will meet that person eventually because you are supposed to meet them. In the land of pretentous people, it's very difficult to find somebody that probably fits what i am looking for. I mean, one criteria i have is can i see this girl fitting in with my immediate and extended family. And out here in Phoenix, lol, that is gonna be hard to find considering where i come from! I've kinda come to realize i might be single until the day i move away from Phoenix...but i hope not.

But hanging out with the guys on a friday night is getting kind of old. It would be nice to be at a movie with a good looking girl than with 2 dudes! Not that i don't enjoy my buds, but i am sure they feel the same way.

I've come to a point in my life where i don't really want to waste my time dating somebody if i know it's not going to go somewhere. Before i used to do that, but i think i know what i want now, and there is no reason to settle for anything other than that. I dunno, just felt like writing that, maybe somebody will take pitty on me!

my weekend

I was pretty tired from the week on friday, ended up watching boxing until about 2am. Here is one of the best fights you will ever watch. Rounds 3,5,9, and 10 are unbelievable.



So i got up and went to the pool early. It was my first attempt at getting some sun this year, and it was a successful attempt. I am not fried. I thought my burn would be gone by now, but it seems to be getting worse.

Watched the Suns game at Yard House on saturday evening. Can't say i didn't enjoy the fact that they lost, considering i'm a pacers fan and i was watching it with a bunch of suns fans. It's always fun to root against the house. Of course i am sure nobody had a clue i wasn't rooting for the suns.

Ended up coming home after the game, watched a movie and went to bed.

Cubs won today finally. Big series coming up against the Mets, then the SOX. Wish i was back in Chicago for that one.

I was dissapointed in myself today. I hiked camelback probably a little too early than i should of, while it was still 100 degrees, and really struggled. Not so much physically but mentally. It wasn't a fun hike, and i was only about 1 of 2 people on it. And what really hurt me was that this dude came running by me like it was nothing, and made me feel like i was a wuss. Next time should be better, hopefully not as hot.

This is going to be a busy week for me. I fly to florida on wednesday( www.marcoislandmarriott.com ) then work non-stop the next 4 days. Should be interesting. I will be drained on sunday, but then have to get right back to work on monday. It will be a nice break from the day to day grind of a normal week.

Starbucks makes me nervous

The Video is for those of you who's birthday it is. Enjoy



So my day started off getting a call at 7am that our alarm at work was going off. Luckily even though i was half asleep, i remembered the code and the guy didn't have to call the police. But i didn't get out of bed to run to the office to turn it off, what's the point, i am first there anyway..

So then, i get to the office and it was my turn to make a starbucks run. Now, this was only going to be my third time ever in a starbucks. And i am not a coffee conassiour(sp), so i don't ever really know what to get. It was easy reading off what my coworkers ordered, but i kinda got nervous when it was my turn because i don't know what anything is. Starbucks make me nervous!! I ended up getting what i usually get even though it's nasty, which is a vanilla cappucino. Then, i get coffee breath for the rest of the morning. Really, couldn't somebody of come up with a better invention than coffee in the morning, something that tastes better and doesn't leave you with bad breath? Not too mention something that doesn't involve mochas and frapuchino's and latte's? I mean, what in the hell is a latte? Apparantley i am the only idiot who doesn't know these things because starbucks is bigger than Micheal Jackson in his prime right now.

Anyway, the rest of the day really drug on, and i got stuck at work until almost 7 waiting on people.

From there, it was home to eat, then wait until 9pm to play the first game of our basketball tournament. We got moved up to the A division, should of been there the entire season. We crushed the other team, and i am finally getting my game back. I think the tournament put a little extra spring in my step.

So i just got done watching the Bachelor. They are down to 4 girls and did the hometown dates. Anyway, this Idiot bachelor guy ends up kicking off the best looking, half way normal girl because she was too young for him. Now, this girl is a 23 year old, very mature school teacher, while he is like 29. What 29 year old guy would do such a thing?! Meanwhile, he picks these 3 other girls, one of whom just told him she was divorced, the other who keeps bringing up her dead ex boyfriend, and the 3rd has to be pushing 38 years old. Don't the producers have the right to step in and knock some sense into this guy? I think it's time i sign up for the show and see if i can be the first bachelor to not make a fool of himself, not make out with every girl, and pick the right girl. Can't be that hard. This guy is a Navy doctor and he comes off like he 18 years old.

Anyway, that was my day....this weekend is looking pretty sweet, total open schedule, no work, lots of sun, maybe some hiking, and maybe a new book...oh, and i need to buy an ipod.


Sanders out